March 7, 2019
In the world of computer programming, it’s not uncommon for lengthy computer code to behave in unexpected and less than desirable ways – to have a “bug”. Clients that then used the software would complain. In response, programmers would lightheartedly try to “dress up” the bug by saying that it wasn’t actually a bug at all but instead, was a “feature”. The suggestion being made was that the programmers actually intended for the software to behave as it did and that the client should be thankful for the aberrant behavior – wink, wink. It was sort of an outstanding joke that programmers used to bring a bit of humor into the stressful realization that their code needed more work.
As it relates to Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome (CIRS), I have occasionally opined about having the misfortune of being endowed with genes that make me susceptible to biotoxins. The whole experience was quite brutal and its only many years later that I’m able to step back and reflect. For the longest time, I viewed CIRS as a “bug”. In other words, there was a problem with my genetic makeup that caused my immune system to freak out from miniscule mold toxins. Who the heck wrote that genetic code because I wanted to have a word or two with them!
The bit of insight that made me chuckle to myself the other day was that maybe CIRS wasn’t actually a “bug” at all but instead, really was a “feature” by design. In other words, unlike when a programmers would say “it’s not a bug it’s a feature” as a way of covering up the shortcomings in their code, CIRS is just the opposite. CIRS is actually a feature that looks like a bug! in other words, CIRS was intentionally built into the our genetic code and plays an important roll. From this perspective, it gives a new twist to the bug/feature quip. It made me laugh.
So why would Divinity make about a 20% of the population so susceptible to biotoxins? At first glance, this doesn’t make sense. Why would this seemingly faulty design persist in the genome? The reason for this becomes apparent once a person understands that biotoxins are extremely harmful to all living beings. Evidence shows that even those people that are seemingly fine hanging out in moldy environments, in fact, suffer adverse health effects too. It just takes longer and manifests in seemingly unrelated forms like cancer, Lupus, MS, and the like.
So biotoxins are harmful to everyone. When one understands this, then having a percentage of people much more reactive when exposed to toxins makes sense. I suspect that in the past, folks with CIRS protected society at large from toxic exposures. To get a sense for this, remember that not until very recently in our history have Homo sapiens set up permanent homes. Until then, people moved about a lot.
Think about it. If a nomadic group happened to decide to set up camp in a low lying bog with mold issues, a percentage of the population would begin reacting at various rates. I speculate that those that were particularly afflicted with CIRS became the seers/visionaries of the group. Reacting almost immediately, they would just “know” that a place wasn’t good, had evil spirits, or the like. From experience, the group would have learned that it was important to heed the prognostications of these seers. From experience, they would have learned that when the seers say a place is not safe, that all sorts of craziness would ensue should they decide to listen to the roughly 80% that didn’t have the same susceptibility and argued against moving.
The nomads would have learned that staying in a place that the soothsayers spoke poorly of meant inviting all sorts of mishaps onto the group. Those more susceptible would progressively behave in more and more deviant ways. Anxiety, fear, and depression would begin afflicting the more susceptible first but eventually would permeate the entire group. With time, the situation would get more and more confused, angry, and even violent. No, no; when the seer says a place has evil spirits, the group would have learned to move on.
Unfortunately today, attempts to quantify everything within the scope of the scientific method coupled with greed has made society sicker. We don’t listen to our guts anymore. We don’t honor the exquisite and incomprehensible complexity of Life. Nowadays, if we’re feeling anxious or depressed, we’re told it’s because we have a neurotransmitter imbalance in our brain and need to take SSRI’s (drugs). Living in a moldy house has nothing to do with it. After all, the insurance industry has a bogus study it commissioned that says so.
If the more sensitive persist and speak out too loudly or coherently about what were initially gut feelings, that through study, they were able to precisely quantify in ways that challenge the status quo, they are first ignored, then labeled as quakes, and later actively censored and attacked by the existing power structure.
So we’re really just at the beginning of learning about how to navigate this experience called Life. The scientific method has helped demystify a portion of our experience. At the same time, the exquisite and infinite complexity of the Universe becomes more and more apparent the deeper we dig. Coming from an engineering background, my tendency has always been to quantify my experience and discard the inexplicable. Today, I’m learning how shallow this approach is. CIRS is not a bug, it’s a feature. Suffering has purpose and in the case of CIRS, very likely kept nomadic societies out of harms way. In spite of the pain that CIRS has brought into my life, there’s a surprising beauty to be had in seeing CIRS from this new perspective. It makes me want to both laugh and cry at the same time – the shear beauty of it all.